i had a semi jam packed day. i finally cleaned up my room last night (kind of) so now i feel somewhat accomplished. THEN after i woke up this morning, i went to jesse’s apartment to eat ramen then dip off to the beach to skim board and such. afterrr that i went to play volleyball. i’mmmmm rusty but i still had fun. haha. thennn after that i had to come back home to complete a homework assignment that i procrastinated way too long. kinna sucked cause i’m not sure if it’s going to be accepted. but! i’ll hope for the best. GOODNIGHT WORLD!!
soooo i forgot to say the other night, before i went to bed what happened while i was trying to sleep.
so i’m still unpacking all my junk, cleaning out everything in stock. andddd finally i hit the hay. thennnn as i’m tryin to sleep. something really loud falls in the room. i try to shrugg it off thinking it’s just something in my imagination. but eventually i start to blow it out of proportion, thinking it’s something like a ghost or a critter in my room.
i start to doze off anddd then the same loud noise happens again! i get spooked and slam my fists on my bed and scream in anger/fear? hahaha it was a weird reaction. so i have all these goosebumps and i’m scared out of my ass and turn on the light. turns out… it was just hangers that just fell. i felt really dumb that i was scared from it, butttt even more dumb when i left the lights on for the rest of the night. LOL! but yeah hahaha
anywho… past couple days have been chill. i’ve been hanging with jesse and friends at his apartment as well as hanging with adrian and kevin playing a game on the wii that’s really addicting. but anywho. hahaha i’m supposed to go to the beach tomorrow andddd play some
Memories with you are cheaper than the film that was used to capture them.
so i guess this is how the story goes? say words that you “won’t ever take back” yeah i’m sure you’re right. your actions are enough. but why should anyone care especially me. you’re like a canyon divided by a river’s edge and your rain cloud is pouring over me. “i’m starting to wonder if i even gave a f*ck about you.” words truly fitting for a girl who’s hips slipped like pressed lips. mine hold secrets that you’ll never hear, but it’s fine cause “i’m just like all the others.” right. condemn me now that my heart bleeds colors that nobody should have seen. stay right where i can see your eyes just as they dart across the room. the pulse on your neck tells me more things than you dare to give yourself away. so say out loud how many other guys just like me took your breath away and helped you breathe it back in? i’m sure this makes sense cause it’s not worth repeating the same mistake more than twice, but girl you were worth it. were, sadly not anymore. so do things out of spite of what’s wrong or “right” but it’s still not enough to say what you really feel. and i was a fool to believe past the envy, past the truth. safe to say that i can hate, i can burn. sit tight cause you’ll never learn. i don’t even care if these words will make sense later cause it’s what my heart is telling me. telling me that you were just a lie. in my eyes you’re just a memory worth forgetting. so take back all of your words, the photographs and while you’re at it, take back the past 4 years. put it in a box for all i care, just take it out of the view of innocent eyes before they know of the life you broke, whose throat that you choked. verdict stands with the jury that the girl can’t be taken from his heart, but the heart can from his chest. and at best he’ll lay motionless or emotionless. the latter being famous but the former, miraculous.
first blog in ages but its fine. doing it for the sake of staying in touch with the friends. :]
so today, i get back at 3 oclock in the morning. the ride with ediths mom was really long and we got lost several times when i was asleep which was kinna scary. hahaha. vicky ended up texting me when the party was pretty much over back in socal, but nonetheless it was nice to hear from someone during the trip.
but after we arrived i was really happy to be home. kind of bittersweet. safe to say that i’m torn between the north and south. but it’s okay, cause i know that i am loved from all over california. it’s a nice feeling. but yes yes. myyyy day was like this…
i fell asleep at about 4. woke up at 7 to help my dad with stocking groceries at the store to make some $$$. it was actually pretty nice cause i got to hang out with my dad, brother, and my sister’s boyfriend. something that i really missed. so we’re supposed to go fishing in the near future, hopefully my dad keeps to his word. but yeah. my dad leaves to hawaii by the end of july next month to live/work over there. i’m really sad that he’s going to go but who am i to say that he has to stick over here? i mean… most of the time i’m not even home so yeah.
my mom has her nursing degree now so she’ll be over here to keep things under control so there’s no worries i guess. but yeah, continuing with my day!
after i worked tillll about 1ish. i went with kevin to get some r.g. burgers (really good burgers) and it was…. f.g. burgers (fucking good burgers) hahaha. had the black and bleu burger, which is cajun and bleu cheese. delicious… hahaha. we ate with his girlfriend, mailihn, and his girlfriend’s brother, mike who goes to UCLA as well. but yeah, after that i met up with jan, ricardo, and adrian to go class. it was really boring but it’s just the rules and such.
after class i went with adriannnn to his houseeee, played this hella fun game on the wii. well it sucked at first cause i was losing, but i started to win so that made it fun. LOL. :) but yes. kevin met up at his house, we all played with adrian’s brother’s and it was an overall good way to start the summer back home.
tomorrowwwwww morning. i’m going to run with jesse from the duck pond to infinity. haha OH btw, he now lives in marina. so excited. cause now he’s within walking distance. hahaha. :D
i really want this summer to be unforgettable cause when i go back, i want to have the happiest of memories to heal over whatever scars i have left and move along with my life. no joke.
as for you, keep coming back to read these posts. i don’t wanna feel like i’m writing them for nothing kay? hahaha